today...

has been good, except for when i had to to go out several times. That got my hostility going. Being reclusive suits me just fine.
==========
my friend...

asked me if he had done something to upset me because we haven't been talking as much as we used to. that made me feel bad. i have been neglectful of much lately. I'll settle down once the flight/trip is over,that's had me stressed and anxious for weeks now. i feel guilty because i have shut a lot of people out but i only have so many emotional resources and my inner circle had to be shrunk down. there is only one of me and for awhile i felt like i was being pulled in ten different directions. i think i have it under control now and i will make time for everyone, but my priorities have changed so they may just have to deal with less of me.as crazy as i'm told i am, they should  see this as a good thing
:p
====================
kat...

is hysterical.
miniature golf corpse.
ice scream at dreary queen.
too much fun.
=================
i'm proud...

of courty. she only hissed at the vet once today. she was a very good girl.
she weighs 11lbs 4 oz.
they told me she has to go on a diet.
what i found amusing was the guy ahead of us had a big black fluffy cat twice her size,surprised they didn't call kitty weight watchers on it.
:p
==============
tricked out...

i got my google,gmail,and yahoo dark pages, no more blinding white.
i like it, a lot.
==============
did i mention...

how incredibly sweet kat is to me?
makes me all warm and fuzzy inside.
================
i do not...

care for the kb on this laptop,it's typos galore.
becca will have a field day.
:p
=================
tyler...

called me a cheater cos I''m using an external mouse on a laptop.
i copy and paste a lot, it was necessary.
before i took a sledgehammer to it.
==================
kat....

sooo hot.
makes me need a fan.
sooo hot,
=============
arghhh...

i washed my hair and the purple is fading again.
by next week it will probably be pinkish red.
if it turns pink again,i give up.
==================
i shoulda...

been a proof reader, i get asked to do it enough.
i don't mind occasionally.
===============
ewwwwwwwwwwww...

i'm watching a show where this guy was eating monkey meat.
that's beyond wrong, and gross.
================
people on tv...

spend so much time on their cell phones it baffles me how they ever need to come in contact with actual humans.
=================
there is...

a roomful of people next door.
shady looking mofos,too,i don't think they're acquainted with the concept of shaving.
is creepy leaving my crypt at times, no telling who or what i may run into.
===============
bipolar people....

have mood swings.
it's just a fact.
i tell people this right off.
they still act shocked to learn that i'm wacky.
eh,bite me.
==================
ha ha ha...

this guy on tv is throwing kegs down stairs to elude the police.
it made me think of donkey kong.
================
kicking myself...

for not grabbing some fries or something while i was out.
my sister is waiting till their company leaves to fix supper so it may be one or two am before we eat.
i'd fix myself something but i'm waiting for the lasagna.
yummmm.
=================
i...

can barely  hear stuff on this laptop.
so i'm pondering taking my speakers with me.
they kick serious ass.
===========
i did like cheese...

till someone referred to it as curdled milk,
funny,i thought that was what cottage cheese is.
don't get me started on yogurt,
ewwwwwww.
==============
i'm curious...

they were saying people don't sleep well with tylenol pm compared to advil pm.
so i did some snooping.
almost all otc sleep aids contain diphenhydramine, which is basically benadryl,'ve been on it all my life.
tylenol pm has 25 mg.
advil pmhas 38 mg,
so,duh,one works better.
doesn't work on me at all unless i haven't taken it in a year or so.
i've had 25 plus years to build up a tolerance.
==============
wtf...

was in those shots they gave courty?
she's been asleep for hours and hours without hardly moving.
not like her at all.
or i'm just a worrywart catmom.
====================
oh,gawd....

this guy on tv is doing a plus/negative list on his estranged wife and new gf.
personally,i'd go with the gf,she's a little crazy but she's fun.
the wife walked out on him so she may be "safe" but she's a bore.
i spent ten years going with safe and conventional,doing what others expected of me.
Boring.
and it worked out so well, NOT.
time to have some fun and do what i want without regard to what everyone else wants.
kat is a lot of fun.
the ONLY corpse bowling date i ever want to have.
===============
ha ha ha...

the girl on tv found his list.
she's mega pissed.
i'd be reaching for my sledgehammer.
:p
=================
if...

i find out i've been lied to...
by anyone...
they'll be on my shitlist a loooooonnng time,
and i always find out so i suggest people don't lie to me.
crazy people are prone to doing crazy things when they feel they've been wronged.
lying is just so..unnecessary.
================
i know...

it's just a tv show.
but dr. house reminds me a lot of myself.
only he has no conscience or,well,redeeming qualities.
even at my worst i'm not that bad.
but as i am prone to saying, i'm one knife in the back away from sociopathy.
=============
i keep...

waking courty up,to make sure she's ok.
i always take it really hard when i lose a pet.
but i'm bonded like crazy to her,losing her is going to kill me.
and the damn vet had to remind me she's a "senior  citizen".
zaphod lived to 14,tho, and noelle was 15 so...
just more time to become more attached.
i usually accept death as a natural inevitability.
except when it comes to my animals.
then it's just a gut wrenching calamity i see no reason for.
=============
how the hell...

this girl in the movie is so ditzy she left town and left her pet ferret leashed to the door of her building.
i'd forget myself before i ever forgot courty.
================
LOL...

my old email...
has 74,000 plus emails.
that is why quit using hotmail,is a fucking spam magnet.
i get nothing thru gmail i didnt specifically want and if i did,it's filtered.
a lot of people bash gmail, earlier i saw an addy at yahoo that said  gmail_is_so_creepy.
ha ha ha.
i think yahoo is creepy.
but it doesn't really matter to me,any felonies i'm plotting,i do off line anyway.
:p
================
sick but funny...

on adult swim, they're spoofing the smurfs.
gargamel just put one into a blender.
ha ha HA!!!!
=============
eh, why not...

i'm watching south park.
i loved it the first two seasons, then it just got redundant and gross.
but occasionally...
it's good for some laughs.
especially when they bash tom cruise and scientology.
==============
i got...

this FF add on that lets you rename your browser tabs so no one can see what page you're on.
i almost never look at pages i need to hide (if i am it's something tyler or my sister told me about, LOL) but i thought it'd be funny to give the pages really stupid,wtf names.
like my yahoo mail is now corpsebowling.com.
gmail is corpseage.com.
ha ha ha.
i don't know why anyone needs to leave home to have fun, i have a blast  without ever leaving my crypt.
maybe i'm just easily amused.
==================
11:30pm...

now my sister is making supper.
we're vampires,i tell you.
==============
they..

were griping about being out of soda.
so i tossed some money at them.
i can afford to be generous.
after next week,the only things i gotta worry about paying for are me and courty.
=============
LOL...

this dude on comedy central is giving this chick singer a hard time because she claims none of her music was written while high.
about the same response i get when i tell people nothing i've never written anything but a journal while high.
"weed does not make you creative, it just makes you think you're creative."
ha ha, my sister's friends would beg to differ.
to each their own.
all i know is it makes me stupid and boring.
but stoners are very funny.
And fun to make fun of.
cos,ya know, they're too high to notice or care.
================
lol...

they're polling people about samulel adams' contribution to this country.
and they ALL said beer.
i detest beer.
probably because my dad let me have it when i was a kid.
mom washed hair in it.
is just nasty.
i'll stick to vodka, which while nasty, fucks you up fast.
===============
i don't...

get why the show cops has been on so long.
i mean,after seeing unshaven drunk men in stained t-shirts being hauled off in handcuffs the thousandth time...
what's the appeal?
==============
just...

saw a cheetah on animal planet.
it made me think of harold and kumar go to white castle.
when they get so high they see a cheetah and ride it around.
stupid.
but too funny.
============
my paranoid nature...

will one day get the best of me.
===============
cable...

is a bit of a rip off.
70 channels and i can' t find a thing to watch.
no wonder some people are dvd freaks.
===============
i was...

lied to today.
it irked me because i knew he was lying to me.
but i said nothing.
needless to say, that guy is on my shitlist.
most stupid people are.
lying is just so unnecessary.
is a tool of the weak minded.
and spineless.
=============
courty...

hasn't moved from the desk chair in like seven hours.
she's pretty slothful but never this bad.
i'm worried.
=================
ugh....

i can't get comfy.
i turn the fan, i get cold.
i turn it off, i get hot.
no happy medium for me.
the extremes are annoying.
==============
yet another...

new method to quit smoking.
i miss the 80's when everybody smoked and no one cared.
people these days are too fucking prissy.
don't smoke, but for fuck's sake don't terrorize those who do.
we'll be judged by our black lungs, emphysema, and cancer, thankyouverymuch.
:p
===============
earlier becca said...

"but we are normal freaky geeks,"
n-n-n-NORMAL???
me?
i hope not.
normal people scare me.
and bore me into a coma
=================
ha ha ha...

my livejournal tab has been renamed,
wednesdayisgod.com
well,it's true here on planet niki.
================
i guess i'm weird...

but websites with little text and just video annoy me.
i have a brain, i prefer to read.
any idiot can watch.
stimulate my mind or fuck off.
===============
oooooo....

june 13 is on a friday.
yayyyyy.
that'd be an awesome day to get all the friday the 13th movies and veg out till your brain bleeds from gore overload.
===========
today's word...

fetter-a restraint.
hmm.
sounds like it could be fun.
ohhhhh,not *that* kind of restraint, got it.
:p
============
whoever...

invented speedos should be shot.
or at least ban the sale of them to overweight bald white dudes.
=============
nickelback...

"criminal record says i broke in twice...i must've done it half a dozen times..."
==============
cowboys from hell...

i haven't gotten out the old pantera in ages.
this band fuckin' kicked ass.
=============
one band...

i detest as much as i hate captchas...
is primus.
they suck,loudly.my sister says i suck for thinking that.
*sluuuuuurrrrrpppp*
I don't like 'em.
==============
this laptop...

sounds like shit.
i had an old gpx boombox that cost $20 and sounded better.
i've just been ruined by desktops and my awesome speakers.
im gonna get some headphones and see if that makes it suck less.
and earbuds are NOT headphones, contrary to what the mp3 generation thinks.
my sister says the earbuds i have sound damn good but...
i'm partial to headphones that feel like suction cups on my ears.
i can't rock out if I can hear what someone is saying.
===============
i'm listening...

to the wallflowers.
i own my lameness.
but i like what i like.
what everyonen else thinks...
simply is not relevant.
and i use that attitude toward everything i do.
my opinion trumps all others.
"a bitch is a woman who knows what she wants and likes and isn't afraid to say so and get it."
don't remember who said that but it's very true.
===============
i'm a giver..

when it comes to stuff i care about.
i donated to my net radio station, anonymously, was not seeking credit at all.
eh,they save me the trouble of having to play cds.
===============
hmmm...

these earbuds actually sound pretty good plugged into the laptop.
but they kill my fucking ears,not in a good way.
fuck it, my sister's blaring some hiphop crap, that's waymore painful.
============
and...

i'm hot again so the fan goes back on.
in about ten minutes,i'm prolly gonna have goosebumps.
and not in the good way.
=============
the more...

i think about it,the more pissed off i get.
that computer tech lying to me really irks me.
they can't be trusted, not the ones here, anyway.
i'm seriously questioning whether ANYONE can truly be trusted.
everyone is out for themselves and would put a knife in your back without blinking.
or maybe i'm just really irritated right now.
being lied to just sets me off.
or am i just mad at myself for not calling him on it?
=============
steelheart...

"i would walk a mile to kiss the lips that make me smile..."
===========
this guy...

is bitching that he's lost ten grand on investments in the last month.
HA! I haven't had ten grand to play with since i was married.
suck it the fuck up, there are truly poor needy people out there who get my empathy.
and NO, i do not consider myself poor.
i have what i need, which is a hell of a lot more than some have.
=============
ozzy...

"i'll introduce myself again, i'm demon alcohol...i'll get you."
==========
lol...

i told my mom i talked to shane and her first comment was, "is he having man problems?"
she knows shane well.
always with the man problems.
shane's such a sweetie,he deserves better.
but he's gotta stop fishing in the bum lake.
================
and...

i'm cold.
i knew it.
my own predictability annoys me.
=================
judas priest...

"you say i waste my life away but i live it to the full...we don't need no,no,no,no parental guidance here..."
============
i'm worried...

i woke courty up because she hadn't moved even for a drink in hours and hours.
she is not acting right, at all.
the vet didn't warn of any side effects.
just my luck she doesn't see a vet in ages and she's fine, then i take her to one and she starts acting sickly.
i'm calling them if she hasn't pepped up by morning.
my poor baby.
==============
i was gonna say...

is there a megadeth song that doesn't sound pissed off...
but yeah, there is.
 "a tout le monde" sounds mournful and sad.
mustaine so obviously needs anger management classes,tho.
============
my anger...

isn't the problem, i control it pretty well *most* of the time,
my hostility is my big issue.
it kicks up as soon as i leave the house and results in glaring and growling under my breath.(cursing as well,my bad.)
need to get a grip on that.
or become even more reclusive.
which would just make me a sad hermit.
=================
these...

earbuds are killing me.
how people wear them for hours on end is beyond me.
i miss my old headphones, which i have to replace because a naughty kitty named courty chewed the cord in two.
seeing her as she is now,i'd forgive her anything.
it's freaking me the fuck out, that's not how my baby acts.
===============
third pack...

of cigarettes for today has been opened.
to say i am stressed is an understatement.
a week from now i'll either be dead(anxiety,plane crash,take your pick) or sipping flavored vodka poolside while courty frollicks with piper.
==============
we had supper...

at one a.m.
it was good but i'm so anxious and worried about courty it was anti climactic.
============
they just played...

jackyl's lumberjack song.
stupid stupid song, almost makes nirvana sound good.
================
dio...

now that's an awesome band.
===============
i had to...

trash a a pair of pants,
they were stained with resin.
april and my need for numbness need to be forgotten.
but, as is everything with me, i either overindulge or cut myself off all together.
i like having my brain back, tho.
i'm good for another year or so.
===============
idiotic...

the band weezer-they suck so bad words can't even convey it-named their new song "pork and beans".
for some reason that made me laugh.
===============
christina...

is sweet, bless her heart.
she's letting me go on and on about how worried i am about courty.
that cat is my life.
===============
i joke...

about being a bad influence.
but i think i really am.
cos i've noticed some people have started using all lower case letters like me,
my bad.
i'm trying to break the habit but i'm weak.
:p
==============
auntie...

must be word of the day.
tyler said it in reference to my sister.
and christina just informed me i'm going to be pipers auntie.
m'kay.
if she asks a bunch of questions like cory,i'm getting earplugs.
:p
===============
blarggggg...

they're playing rush.
i'm too lazy to change it so i'm just gonna bitch.
i'm female so i'm entitled.
that's funny cos i know some guys who put women to shame when it comes to complaining.
:p
==============
i'm weird...

because when someone says i'm pretty...
i find it kinda insulting.
smart,funny,crazy,wild,wacky,wacko,those terms are acceptable.
pretty has taken a spot along side cute in my book.
ick.
i know people mean well tho so i don't say anything, they're sweet for saying it.
only i would bitch about being flattered and complimented.
eh, pretty girls are a penny a dozen.
i don't wanna be one of the masses.
:p
=============
there are times...

when im pissed off or annoyed...
and i just smile.
and say the nicest things.
because i know some people do stuff to set me off and make me act out so they can hold it against me (my family.).
i won't give them the satisfaction.
fuckyouverymuch.
i'll bite a hole in my tongue first.
===============
don't...

tell me about your sex life.
please.
TMI.
the only exception is tyler.
i learn soo much from him.
:p
well,i do.
================
phil lewis..

has the voice of a god.
capable of making my toes curl.
or my heart break.
=============
lol...

christina is up at 12:30 am and made a comment about being a night owl.
that amuses me.
i wake up around midnight.
and don't die down till 4or 5 am,if then.
i live for the night.
==============
ooooo...

they're playing danger danger.
ted poley's voice...
mmmmm.
============
ha ha ha...

my sister came in and said,"Are you awake?oh,hell,you're always awake."
that's not true.
i'm totally not awake when i am asleep.
:p
=========
i thought...

not having to move off the bed to be on line was a good thing.
but my back is killing me,i miss my desk chair.
i know, would i like some cheese with that whiiinnne.
swiss,please.
:p
==========
ROTFLMAO..

my sister said one of their friends earlier brought his woman,a non smoker, and she had the nerve to ask a room full of smokers to not smoke around her.
wow,that takes some nerve.
my brother in law told her-and not politely- to go home if she didn't like them smoking.
too funny.
people like that make me want to put a whole pack in my mouth, light up, and exhale in their face.
i'm not rude, i won't smoke at someone else's house or in their car if told not to, and if it truly bothers someone i won't smoke in their airspace.
but to go to someone else's house and ask them not to smoke...
dumb bitch.
=================
ugh...

the bass off my sister's hiphop music is making the walls shake.
is ok.
i have RATT.
===============
if you don't like me...

i simply don't care.
i don't inflict myself upon anyone.
i usually let people come to me, actually, just to avoid the whole placing myself where i may not be wanted thing.
it's not disinterest.
it's self protection.
plus i avoid the whole mutual friends talking about what a stalker i am or whatever.
:p
================
maybe...

courty is ok.
she still won't look at me when i say her name but her ears perk up.
maybe shes just traumatized from getting three shots and being outside her comfort zone.
i'm afraid to sleep,i'm so worried about her.
==================
i've...

picked greenery out of the lawn i bet is more tasty than cabbage.
i'm kinda grossed out by all things green.
just being random.
=============
i watched..

the new foamy tonight and i don't even remember it, i was talking to people and worried about courty.
that is rare when i don't go gaga for a foamy.
==============
LOL...

this guy's screen name is mulletman.
only paul would truly appreciate how funny that is.
=============
skankzilla...

i have NO idea.
but it's funny.
=================
firehouse...

"turn it up till your speakers blow..."
============
the only thing...

that could improve upon 3AM...
is metallica's "master of puppets" blaring in my ears.
kqlz fucking RULES.
=============
if you don't...

know my cat's name, we're probably not close.
or you're just too self asborbed to care enough to remember my furkid's name.
in which case, fuck you.
============
the popular kid...

not me, my hair, demmit.
kasey saw it and shrieked, "Oh my god, it's sooo purple, that's so exciting!"
gar needs to take her out more often.
then my sister's friends were here this morning with their babies (i got on the floor and played with shelby, she likes me)and rosie-grown with a kid, mind you, said, "I'd never have the guts to color my hair some wild color,my dad wouldn't approve."
hmm,my rule of thumb was, if my dad doesn't like it, i love it. still is, actually, tho it's not an effort, he hates everything i like anyway.
my brother in law jumped halfway across the room when he saw my hair, said it looked like i was under blacklight.
till i wash it again it does, anyway.
is weird, cos i didn't go with purple for shock value or to get attention.
i just really like purple.
which is why my hair seems hell bent on being pink.
it wants to spite me.
================
i prefer...

joan jett''s version of "dirty deeds."
guitars seem heavier.
heavier is better.
============
i'm...

always so much calmer and happier when i am talking to kat.
he's like xanax and prozac with no nasty side effects.
============
LOL...

winger's "seventeen" is playing.
i was on some site recently and they were debating the legality and perversion of this song.
17 is legal in most states, duh.
the perversion...i'm not going there.
my dad was seeing his woman when she was sixteen so...
loaded subject.
I just find it amusing people have nothing better to do than debate over a song.
it's hair metal, not the supreme court.
=============
oooh,skid row....

YAY!!!!!!
sebastian could sing me to sleep any time.
really, his voice is soothing
even if he has become super lame.
at least he gave his kids cool names.
(paris and london,the cities where they were conceived,LOL.)
===============
skid row...

"please let there be light..in a darkened room..."

Ok, but just a dim one.
:p
============
beautifully yummy..

kat is.
purrrrr.
=============
shirt i want...

"due to budget cuts, the light at the end of the tunnel has been turned off."
==========
well...

courty sort of responds when i say her name, kitty cringe,i fear.
she hasn't been ill and her ears sorta perk to the sound of her name, i guess those are good signs.
i'm still worried,tho.
==============
christina promised me...

that all the drama will cease out there.
i hope so, i could use a serious overdose of non drama.
==========
brrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

it got cold,fast.
i should be snuzzling under vellux with kat right now.
==============
i am...

a fountain of useless pop culture references.
but i kick ass at related trivia games.
when we played kasey's "scene it" last time, everyone else had like,19,20 points.
I had sixty three.
can you tell i've never really had a life?
===============
hey...

i said courty's name and she actually lifted her head this time.
eh she went right back to sleep but it's progress.
===========
i predict...

I'm going to traumatize kat a lot with my pop culture references.
eh, he  can traumatize me with depeche mode.
=============
5 am....

the birdies are telling me all about their branches.
it used to annoy me.
now it just makes me smile.
===============
very very very busy...

EVIL words.
EEEEVIL.
=================
oooohh... 

a crue song from "shout at the devil."
NIIICE.
heavy metal cures all ills.
=============
merciful...

my sister finally turned off the wall thumping "music".
ugh.
=============
that...

makes NO sense.
some people baffle me.
============
fighting off...

depressing thoughts.
i can't let them in or they'll crush me and i'll be back on the stupid pills.
believe me, i don't miss spending the first half of my day nauseated.
and finally,people can't lord "being medicated" over my head.
i hate that shit,people who do that suck.
sad thing is, almost everyone outside the ones who are medicated does it.
that's just really cruel.
those who use illegal drugs and do it are the worst.
bet they wouldn't wind up in a locked ward without their "medicine".
i'd like to put them all on a boat with tom cruise and watch it sink to the depths of the ocean.
i'd bug it so i could hear the screams.
:p
============
i have...

5 cigarettes left.
but,no,i'm not stressed at all.
============
child's play...

"well,i don't love you anymore, and that's for sure.."
==================
it will be ok...

i just have to keep repeating it like a mantra.
and have some faith.
whatever will happen will happen.
i believe in fate, as flaky as it sounds.
everything happens for a reason.
==============
i must..

just have sensitive ears but these earbuds are killing me.
and no, not because the music's too loud,is a comfort thing.
my sister said these earbuds are more comfortable than hers, i must just be being a princess.
but it huuuurrrrts.
my ass is going out for headphones today.
i want mozzarella with my whine this time.
:p
==================
clueless...

kat has no idea how hot he is.
he is so hot he makes my bone marrow sweat.
his mirrors are going to all be replaced one day.
they're obviously broken.
==============
panic...

and not at the disco.
:p
just sometimes some stuff makes my heart skip beats and i get really anxious.
i'm going to be a fucking wreck a week from today.
wow,in all my gloom mongering,i didn't factor in the possibility of terrorists.
LOL.eh, at least i still have my sense of humor.
tho i bet it'd be easier to get a bomb on the plane than take a cat on one.
"Oh, you have a bomb in your shoe? Go right ahead..Wait, you with the cat, security wants to talk to you about that meow mix in the dish,it looks like anthrax..."
===========
wtf...

would one do with a 600,000 volt stun gun?
other than use it on soccer moms for entertainment purposes.
yup,it's that time again, got my new budk catalog.
weapons,weapons,weapons.
so many weapons, so many deserving of being on the receiving end, so little time.
i'm not sadistic.
much.
=============
more improvement...

courty turned around when i said her name.
i'm still going to call the vet, to be on the safe side.
they'll probably laugh at the neurotic catmom,but my baby is my heart.
her well being comes before all else.
=============
my dad...

says i'm opinionated like it's a bad thing.
i guess to men it is, women are supposed to be weak and dependent and cowtow to whatever men want.
i was absent the day that was taught, apparently.
i have a mind, i'm gonna use it.
and calling me a bitch only flatters me.
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weird...

i was told my grandmother asked about me the other day.
last time i went to see her, she refused to acknowledge my presence.
so pardon me if i return the favor.
i'm only petty when you piss me off.
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i'm loving...

all these black web pages.
the basic white was blinding.
it wouldn't surprise me if i cut myself and bled black.
hmm,i wonder if you can dye your blood...
ok i'm joking there but if you could, that'd be pretty cool.
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goosebumps...

again.
is cold this morning.
i didn't put weatherbug on here so i have no idea what the temp is.
i figure in cali, i'm not going to need a program to tell me, duh, it's warm and sunny out.
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in for a penny...

in for a pound.
some things really need to be said.
in the sense of fair play.
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i think...

it's bullshit my mom works 12 hours all night then has to come home, stay up, get cory ready,then take him to school,meanwhile his parents sleep because they were up till five .am. hanging out.
people who have kids and don't take care of them piss me off.
i don't care if it's family.
you have a kid, happy fun time is over, grow the fuck up.
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out...

of smokes.
time to go bum off mom.
is ok, we share like that.
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courty...

still isn't up and about but she seems more alert.
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i need...

to have my head examined.
again,anyway.
i'm seriously fucked.
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i love how,...

on tv people have these brain tumors and yet they never lose more than a single lock of hair where it can't be seen.
my ex husband had brain surgery twice and they took off all his hair even tho they incisions were itty bitty.
apparently if you get a tv tumor,you get to keep your hair even if your incision is the size of texas.
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i forgot...

my stumble upon password,mainly because i didn't set it up, christina did.
i shoulda remembered what she'd use.
it showed a link I favorited and it said "female porn" and i was like, wtf, i despise porn, was i that stoned?
actually,it's a picture of a guy in an apron doing housework,I knew christina would LOVE it so i marked it for her.
ha ha ha, see what my dirty fantasies are of.
me and millions of other women.
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del lep...

"whatever you do, i'll be two steps behind you...wherever you go,i'll be there to remind you..."
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WOW.....

progress is being made where i did not think it possible.
brave new world indeed.
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it amuses me...

how city people want the small town experience while i crave the big city experience.
i've had friends who thought this place would be great and packed up and came here with the intention of settling down here.
all three of them were gone within a week.
if you cant handle boredom and limited shopping and such, this is not the place for you.
is funny because they said, "i thought you were being a drama queen but that place really will bore you to death."
i wish more people felt that way, actually, we get a lot of transplants from the cities up north due to the correctional facility here.
not nice people who make a lot of trouble.
maybe that's why they're not bored into a coma.
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i couldn't...

believe my bother in law's code for the wireless network.
to say i am surrounded by racists is an understatement.
if you're not lilly white, they likely have a problem with you.
my problem is with those who live up to negative stereotypes or are just bad people.
i think ethnic diversity is actually pretty beautiful.
maybe because i've been exposed to so little of it.
but i will side with a lot of people.
if you're gonna live here, learn the language.
we don't go to mexico and demand they speak english or whatever.
i could go on like my family does about people who have a bunch of kids and live off tax dollars but the worst offenders are our own race so it would be unfair.
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phone...

are a necessary evil.
but very eeeevil.
for one reason and one reason only i am willing to get over it.
kat has set so many precedents in my life...
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if...

i offend you...
tell me so.
i'm not opposed to a good debate and if presented in an intelligent,logical manner, i might even change my point of view.
not likely, but its been known to happen before.
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for christmas...

i'm getting tyler some boobs to play with.
:p
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painslut...

i should not look at websites others tell me about.
some might find that term a turn on.
it just makes me laugh.
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i want...

a wall sized poster of the album cover to wednesday's "bloodwork"ep.
i love that picture, he looks so...
hostile.
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yayyy...

courty is up and about,alert,and purring.
i'm so relieved.
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somehow...

without moving off the bed i lost the remote.
i heard something fall earlier, could've been that.
i don't have the energy to move the heavy bed away from the wall to look,tho.
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livejournal's question today...

what three dishes could you live on for the rest of your life?

I dunno, i don't eat the dishes,just the food in them.
:p

mashed potatoes.
french fries.
pizza.

living in cali,it may be all i can afford, bet they even charge for the air you breathe there.
:p
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i mentioned kids the other day...

and tyler basically said ewwwww.
LOL.
is so weird because the guys around here are pretty much obsessed with spawning.
the guys i know pretty much avoid kids like the plague.
as i told tyko, i LOVE kids.
as long as i can give them back to their owners when i'm done being amused by them.
yeah,i don't fit in here at all because the women are obsessed with kids,too. I get sick of being asked why i don't have any. Um, because i'm selfish and would rather have fun than pass on my junk dna. well, that's the party line, anyway, fate solved the issue for me  a long time ago. but is still the truth,i'm too self centered to be a parent. difference between me and most everyone here is i can admit it.
reproduction as a past time, wow, that's really sad. this place is fucking sad, period.
is it the 22nd yet?
i want OUT of here.
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it annoys me...

when i feel like someone is being condescending.
it could just be my paranoid nature and they're being sincere.
and the x files is a kid's show about the alphabet.
:p
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i've been awake..

25 hours.
damn brain won't shut up.
nothing new.
is irksome.
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courty...

is acting more normal now, thank the sacred cow.
she keeps looking at me like i'm nuts cos i've taken to calling her sweet pea.
which is what the nurses in the hospital called my sister when she was born,
it's also her favorite scent, go figure.
well,now it's my cat's nickname.
one of them.
kanga, pretty girl, courty, sweet pea, flabby tabby, big girl, pooty, pooty booty,sexymisskangapaws,pretty kitty,big eyes...
i have lots of cutesy pet names for her, all meant with the utmost of affection.
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still...

awake,but i'm gonna post this before it turns into one of my 700 page epics.
:p
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